dear journal,

juz a couple days ago, I had a long talk with my faculty grand master...
he's so charismatic n full of pride. I know he's a great guy (who looks like jiraiya, naruto's master) and he gave me some inspiration...
but to bad, journal, the inspiration he gave, it's supposed to be final trial inspiration, BUT IT'S NOT!!!

look, he told me about our mother earth, about how we follow US's style, and left our tradition behind, and how it is a shame for our country who always want to follow capitalism... damn!!! I'm so not in mood to do design right now, n I'm in the middle of final trial as graphic designer!!! gyaaaaaaaaahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

he does make me dun wanna touch anything I dun like, and do as I please!!! what should I do??? the courage I have before talk to him, the inspiration I hold in my for my final trial, IT'S ALL GONE JUST BECAUSE HE SAID "I dun like electronics, and I prefer to live on my own, never follow US's style"

and that makes me want to disappear from my university, stand in the middle of meadow, in front of a canvas, below the blue cloudy sky!!! dammit!!! I can't back off anymore!!! I already held back half year, juz bcoz of MY stupid reason behind it : I DUN WANNA DO THIS FINAL TRIAL!!!

awww...dad, mom, I'm sorry for my laziness before...now I dunno how can I survive this final trial...I wasted much of your money T___T
I'm reaaaaally sorryyyyyyyyyyyyyy for my weirdness, laziness, and useless!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!