dear journal,

juz a couple days ago, I had a long talk with my faculty grand master...
he's so charismatic n full of pride. I know he's a great guy (who looks like jiraiya, naruto's master) and he gave me some inspiration...
but to bad, journal, the inspiration he gave, it's supposed to be final trial inspiration, BUT IT'S NOT!!!

look, he told me about our mother earth, about how we follow US's style, and left our tradition behind, and how it is a shame for our country who always want to follow capitalism... damn!!! I'm so not in mood to do design right now, n I'm in the middle of final trial as graphic designer!!! gyaaaaaaaaahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

he does make me dun wanna touch anything I dun like, and do as I please!!! what should I do??? the courage I have before talk to him, the inspiration I hold in my for my final trial, IT'S ALL GONE JUST BECAUSE HE SAID "I dun like electronics, and I prefer to live on my own, never follow US's style"

and that makes me want to disappear from my university, stand in the middle of meadow, in front of a canvas, below the blue cloudy sky!!! dammit!!! I can't back off anymore!!! I already held back half year, juz bcoz of MY stupid reason behind it : I DUN WANNA DO THIS FINAL TRIAL!!!

awww...dad, mom, I'm sorry for my laziness before...now I dunno how can I survive this final trial...I wasted much of your money T___T
I'm reaaaaally sorryyyyyyyyyyyyyy for my weirdness, laziness, and useless!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'll leave DA for a while, looking for a new inspiration to make some artworks.
hahahahahahahahahahaha

everyone who read this Journal..
I 'm very very mad because of someone attitude!!!

I remove the nude deviants because of the model's request!!!!!!!!!!

I'm really really sad and angry because some of DeviantArt user had a very ugly ATTITUDE!!!! or should i call it a SEXUAL HARRASMENT!!!!!!!

I MADE THE DEVIATION NOT FOR SOMEONE TO USE IT SO HE CAN MASTRUBATE!!!!!!!!

AND DON'T SENT ME MESSAGE HOW YOU USED THE DEVIATION FOR THE FULFILLMENT OF OWN SEXUAL DESIRE BECAUSE IT'S NOT!!!!!

I MADE THE DEVIATION FOR ART SAKE AND ONLY FOR ART!!!!!!!

RIGHT NOW, THE MODEL FEEL SO EMBARRASED!!!
AND SHE FEEL SO DISGUST BECAUSE OF SOMEONE BAD ATTITUDE OF SEXUAL HARRASMENT!!! YES!!!
I'M TALKING ABOUT YOU!!!!

he making an art model feels like a pornography model!!!!!!!!

this is a disgrace of an art!!!! and I really really feel disappointed!!

I hope there will be no more case of bad attitude like this!!!!!

due to my crappy internet connection, I can't upload my arts easily... need an hour to upload 1art!!I'm very upset bout this stupid connection...

I'm still lonely too...hehehehehehe

I lost my mood to drawing and illustrating...well well...what should I do?

I juz feel lonely lately... I dun need someone to talk to, I juz need someone to be by my side.
I dun need them talking to me, I juz need them stay right beside me.

that's what I feel...